Wednesday, February 25, 2009;
♥崩溃
♥ 5:55 PM
原本高高兴兴,终于把他们要的华文学会 T 恤做好啦!
(虽然我真的很赶,没有真的做到很辛苦)结果今天一拿出来, 隔壁座朋友一个奇怪的表情马上就映入眼帘
再加一句“
很吓人咧”。我“噢”了一下,心想可能我们的 taste 不一样吧
信心已经大打折扣了。再把它交给负责人,我把它折了起来,叫他迟些才看
就是去各自学会的时候了,今天我没去华文学会,怕 Choir 有练习
Choir 回来了。我不敢问朋友对我那件衣服的意见
之前他们说要做 “牛衣”。所谓“牛衣”,就是印有 牛波点 的衣
拿了回来,
“我给他们看了,有些女生接受不来这样的衣服,这里,
这里,那里改掉,然后颜色我本身和几个也不是很喜欢,不够 sharp”(我放上来是真的鼓起了勇气,因为是让更多人看到了全部人都不喜欢的东西) 我想我当时信心是侧地被打败了吧。不过我一直说服自己,
告诉自己那是我的责任,我做的不好就应该改!不过我还是撑了下去:
“嗯,我会回去改” 眼泪开始在眼眶中打滚,不过我没让它流出来
还是 SarA ,敏慈最好 T_T 唯两位赞我的衣服
我真的很很很谢谢 SarA 喜欢我的作品,至少我觉得还有人跟我一样
你明明就是上天派来做我知己的嘛!-命-中-注-定-
再回到班,我还是鼓起了勇气,问了后座的朋友
“刚才你们都有看到那件衣服了?”“嗯……不过大多数人……” 我没再听下去。
另外一位朋友走过来
“为什么做酱子的牛斑的?全部人都不喜欢,除了美艳”不过美艳就是说她不是很喜欢那个颜色嘛 ,
谢谢你在他们面前支持我 ~
不然他的句子可能就是
“没有一个人喜欢”我还是 “嗯” 了一声,解释说以前是 AJK 说要牛斑的
过后 Sara 听了回过头来,“
其实我觉得那些说这些的人可能都没有想到我们做的有做到多辛苦吗…………[...]”
(我知道我自己没做到真的很辛苦,不过我真的不知道,我没有 idea, 他们都在催……)
他说了几句,安慰了我,我全部心声也同时在她口中说出
可能是因为撑了很久,没有说出来,没有告诉人家,也没有哭出来,
一听到,好像一下子
崩溃了! 眼泪在还来不及思考与允许前,夺眶而出
我当时真的很想找个人给我抱。
我知道的,这衣服只是小事,以后还有更大的问题等我面对,等我解决,我知道的……我真的知道的。不过可能,我就是那么……爱哭
原来我是脆弱的,只是在硬撑,只是在扮坚强
最近心情也不知为什么特别低落,以前的我呢?
我还在寻找……
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Monday, February 23, 2009;
♥ Moody
♥ 10:14 PM
Okay my PC restarted just now and
what i've typed just now has just been flied away T_T
Somhow, im
moody 2day.
i dont noe y but i just like very
unhappy 2day, without any special reason.
I laughed whole day, with friends, families, but im still like not having a nice mood now.
I sang, very very loudly, but i dont think my mood is any better .
my mood currently is just not
bright! : (
- I always think that i can be happy always without any emotional problem.
- I always think that i can think very positively?! Dont I?!
- I always think that i can live happily without this, (pointing ), this, and (pointing somewhere else) that.
- I always think that those things are not the thing i care with ...until it gone. Okay tei cho li. te ba zei xo haan no li.
THiS iS THE LiFE
To say Im happy now is
not a lie.
But to say
"wu yo doan duu ba xoan no" would be the
biggest lie!
Be happy yinG!
Rain, rain
go away!
come again another day =)
as what i always tell my friend,
- 顺其自然 -
♥
( just a random photo with my dears :] )
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Thursday, February 19, 2009;
♥ Form4
♥ 10:43 PM
NEW BLOG SKIN, NEW LIFE!jia yOu for d very 1st
exam of form4,the 'honeymoon' year!
haha i dont tuition
physics n chemistry like wad my friends do,
so definitely i have to put in
more n MORE effort than them,
yeah im
learning to schedule my time.
But im
not adhering it always =(
okay but wad can i say is, I have a little bit improvement compare v b4.hehe*
Im actually better than them ba im taking IT =)
well so far i dont think my teacher is lazy lar hehe*
she got teached all of the topics~ But sometimes she will skip a bit lar hehe.
n the net is not that slow also ♥
Everything is so fine now =D n my busy life is coming soon again!
- Choir
- Chinese public speaking
- Choral Speaking
- Chinese Debate
okay so far just 4 of these.initially im
not thinking to take part in the
debate anymore 1. It's so scary!
NIGHTMARE! i cant react very quickly n im just so scared of it T_T I sincerely hope that there's an angel will steps front of me n help me!replace my place kay!
Choir, we're taking ABBA's song. Puteri & Chan Hwa r taking ABBA's songs also.
hope that our songs would not be the same so the judges will not compare it x.x
O yea, few of the Sopranos and I are changed to to higher tune 1~
'
Descants' i think? Im so surprised to hear that i am picked into that part!
Frankly i
dont think i can do well (._.)
Just,
All The Best!♥Hope my life will go smoothly like what it is now .
(notice some difference on me? yupe im using contact lens now and i wont use it after tis =P) Labels: 随手。琐碎
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Monday, February 16, 2009;
♥ 减肥?
♥ 8:44 PM
吃得是福。
我天生就是个垃圾桶,只要能进口的都照吃不误。
别人说那冷了,不好吃
别人说那很厚,不好吃
别人说那太咸,不好吃
[...]
我也说过,可是我还是吃了
看见有人看了看那块凉了的炸鸡
说凉了,不好吃,就向妹妹丢去
我
愣
住
了
告诉你,如果是我,
就算我还是饱,我应该还是会吃那块炸鸡吧?
炸鸡耶 my lOve! 哈哈哈
就像刚才,吃完饭了,
看见面包很好吃,允许自己吃了一片
然后桌上又看见新年剩下的年饼,又吃了几块
巧克力小姐又很不幸地出现在我视线里
妈呀,对不起,我把你给吃光了
(真的整灌吃完了 O.O)
我知道我真的太爱你了 x.x
更是饭桶一个,无饭不欢。
减肥?
对我来说,还是太难了
这两个字从我口中都被说出有几千次了呗
可惜。
一直以为可以是训练自己恒心、毅力的机会
结论出来了。
我还是没有恒心,不够毅力。
饭桶 + 垃圾桶 = 我
(左:
减肥成功者 右:失败者)
他真的在不到2个月时间瘦下了大约10多公斤吧
她娇小的身材叫我妒忌
不过更令我佩服羡慕的是他的
毅力 =)
真的好厉害
♥
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Thursday, February 12, 2009;
♥ fOr myself.
♥ 5:31 PM
(can we take a pic like this nx time? i like it very much =D ) wu xoang zho deo te dai wu deo do sho zin yeng!
huu hai yo qoan ba heo heo zhin xo.
ba zho deo hei yuu jo hai me? T_T
♥
just some personal message for myself =)By the way,
for
couples, must chang chang jiu jiu =)
and frens, family,
I LOVE YOU! ♥
nothing special in this post =]
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Saturday, February 7, 2009;
♥ I started to WORRY
♥ 10:44 PM
mood down*currently im cutting papers for xue ji.
well im in charged of
doing all the name cards & souvenirs for our very 1st activity.
I manage to
design our T shirt, the name card, and cut all those colour papers,call the manufacturer of the T shirts to huggle over the prices and etc .
eews.
Weekend is the day that students waited to
relax their mind?
NO it is not!!
(for me!)I have to wake up by 9.30am to have my
3 tuitions continuously.
( i have half or 1 hour between them but i dont wan to mafan mummy daddy~so i stay outside to eat or do revision)
until...
4.30pm.
I am already exhausted, after taking a nap, bath, dinner, watching tv for a while,
and i have to do my xue ji preparation, and my homework!
Ok and the
Sunday that people consider it as
'family day', is
not for me also =(
totally converse with it!
i have to wake up very very early to have my tuition at
8am!!
do u think i can sleep very early at the previous day, Saturday?i have truckload of things to finish ley!
it's still okay..
but!my tuition will end up at 10am, yea i will go bus station for xue ji straight away!
and i will reach my SWEET SWEET home only at about 5.30pm.
sleep again! so tired man =(
and how about my homework?!
rush? aiks..
im wondering...is there any extra time for me to do my revision?
im wondering...can i get used to the life like this?
im wondering...can i do it without affecting my result?
im wondering...will these estrange my relationship with my parents?!!
im wondering...can i hold up till the very last minute this year?!
I AM WORRYING, very badly!!
i scare...
im really scare!
yes it finally come to the time that i should really learn to
arrange my time wisely.
can I?
can I?!
(shaking my head)i dont think so... T_T
the only way for me is to manage my time well?
or should i abandon mayb a tuition?!
I want
simple life =(
I want to stay v
mummy daddy happily oweys!
I have to
jiayOu ♥!
you can
you can
you can!
yinG u can! smile =)
(im actually crying..)
oh yea we took this photos this morning =)
our choir presentation. gr8 performance keke*
well the last photo is SarA tat i've edited
well i noe it's not tat nice but it actually can reflect my emotion now hehe*
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Sunday, February 1, 2009;
♥ Guitar
♥ 9:24 PM
okay im extremely busy today! xue ji, homework,
god, there is a truckload of homework waiting me to finish X.X
We have a
performance of Choir this weekend, okay
so?
::
So i will miss a lot of classes again =( Im forced to take part in
Sports day! gosh*!
Again! any1 remember wad did i get
last year ?
YES, i got
LAST! sigh*
okay im
ready to be ridiculed again (._.)
( the 1st 3 photos are taken by the photographer
GAN! it's me ;D)
Okay
♥GUITAR, im back!
i sold it to Derrick last month,
- ( When i took it out to clean it before giving to derrick,i dont noe y i feel like very 'bu she de'. =P)
- Okay personally i felt that the price is ridiculously cheap as my jie bought it with Rm200+ but i sold it with Rm75?
- And his mum haggled over the price, but i said the guitar is not mine, so i shouldnt do any extra decision.hehe*
- After that, i really buey tahan lar i dont noe y, den i told derrick, if he doesnt like the guitar, it's OK to return the guitar to me n i'll give him bk the Rm75.
- Coinsidencely! Derrick said he really wanted to do so! because that is not the guitar he was finding for =\
- ( i was like 'YAY!' that moment!) haha he said he cant even sleep the last night before that because he scared I will angry about that. hahaha*
- Okay that's y. Dont's you feel that it's all about PROVIDENCE? FATE? *evil laughing*!
Okay so i decided to learn at least a bit bit when im free :)
yea jie taught me a little bit last time but i dont practice always,
and now,
forgot ady ; D (hahaha)
I chased up hill and down dale to find the note tat jie jie left for me,
but i
failed : (
hehe but nvm, i can learn
online!
like how i learn my photoshop =D
i noe i like♥ guitar :]
jiayOu! no giving up anymore ~
cheers!
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